With the paper completed I feel accomplished. I am still not a fan of writing but I do feel like I did accomplish something with all that I have been doing these past weeks. I do not believe my ideas of writing changed. The other topics I would like to research next time is Ovarian cancer and the effects it has on the person and their family.

I never had someone post a comment to my blog so I really cannot tell you how I feel about it. I am not sure on wither I will continue to blog when this course is over with. I might continue they say that it’s good to journal your thoughts and this year has been a hell of a year with tons of emotions.

Its been a busy week with Carl getting ready to go to JRTC. I miss him already but glad his gone, he was starting to hover this past week. I am more than capable to do the things to keep the house running and do the man jobs for 3 weeks.
The Ah Ha factor when working on my project was when I was trying out the different formats of prewriting techniques. I found that I was more comfortable with incorporating many of techniques than just one of them. One of the things I found shocking in my research was how many women a year are diagnosed with breast cancer and that I am not alone when it comes to my body image after everything being done to prevent it from reoccurring.

A late post

One thing that is an academic challenge is my memory. Days are running into each other recovering so I forget what day it is. It’s not like I am meaning to but when you’re on as much medication as I am it’s hard to concentrate or stay awake. I weaned myself off the meds so now I have a clearer mind and trying to take notes to remind me of things I have to complete. I even have set my phone to remind me of things due. I am going to attempt this but I am going to get week ahead of myself so I stay in top of things and only have to worry about the discussion post to my classmates.

It has been a very stressful 6 weeks for me. With 2 surgeries and school it was very hard to balance my time and energy. It’s sad to say that school came 3rd on my priorities. But thank goodness these past 2 weeks I was able to catch up and complete my final project for one class and working on the second one this week. Just so I can get everything caught up before I see the doctor on Friday. Hopefully it’s good news and not what we are thinking it is. I hate having to worry about the cancer popping up in another part of my body. I have fought so hard to survive these past months and watch a grandmother pass away and sisters go through surgery because of that stupid gene we have. What are the odds of 4 girls in one family having breast cancer all within 12 months? Crazy huh.

May 17, 2010

We have to really look at our selves and think how much we plagiarize each day and not realize it. Before you say not me I would never do that, stop and really think on what I am saying. How many of us have used a saying from a movie jokinly and not cited the movie, person who said it or even the writer of the movie. If you look at the meaning Merriam-Websters dictionary to plagiarize means:

• to steal and pass off (the ideas or words of another) as one's own
• to use (another's production) without crediting the source
• to commit literary theft
• to present as new and original an idea or product derived from an existing source.

Huh makes you think!

www.plagiarism.org/plag_article_what_is_plagiarism.html

Lets take a look at my week and then you would know why there is an advantage for me to take online classes. I have cancer so in the many months past and future I have had procedures that would interfered with my classes. This last week I have had another surgery and with the pain pills that I have been on I have been knocked out for days. Just these last few days the fog like feeling has left me enough that I have been able to concentrate on some of my assignments. If this was a class that I had to take at a college I would have never made it for the next 3 weeks due to the restrictions I am under.

May 4, 2010

Today is the day for surgery. Spent most of the night tossing and turning scared I was going to sleep through the alarm and not get up at 4am. Carl says its cold outside, which is shocking considering its Texas. Need to go have to be there in an hour and its an hour drive. I will be so glad when everything is over with I am tired of traveling all over the state for different procedures but all for the same thing.

April 30, 2010

I am so frustrated over stupid "army wives" who really need to have a class on being mature.
Yesterday I was on my Facebook because I admit I am addicted to Farmville. As I was getting ready to click on it I noticed this blog written by one of my husbands soldier's wife. This lady had to nerve to bash my husband on Facebook because she assumed my husband made her husband go to work after being off for personal reasons. First of all I was sitting right next to my husband when her husband called and I remember my husband telling this soldier he did not have to go to work if he felt he needed more time off. Second be aware of what you post on Facebook because people even employers do read your blogs. Now people can see why I do not hang out with the "army wives" to much drama over something petty. Your husband signed a contract with the military which means you did too because you came as a package deal on his end. Meaning let him do his job without you going crazy over getting home late, going to the field, overseas fighting, or not having a day off outside of the weekend. Serious your going to have a bash party on Facebook! Call my husband or go to legal over it but don't have bash party over something petty. Thank you for listening to me rant and rave over this, it helps so much to release this frustration.

April 28, 2010

I want to go back to work, its driving me crazy being home. Whats sad about it all is that I am counting the days before I can go back to work.

April 27, 2010

Woke up this morning thinking that in a month and half would be a year that I discovered the lump in my breast. It is also almost a year that Carl has been home from Iraq and that in 3 months he has to go back. I do not agree to this war or sending our men and women over there but I stand by them 100%.
They told me it would be a long process in my fight for cancer and that it would take over a year before it feels normal again. When they told me that I looked at them like they were crazy. I kept telling myself that I would have the surgeries and reconstruction done before that year was up. Look at me now almost 7 months after the first surgery and finally I start my reconstruction surgery next week. People do not understand how it feels to be mutilated with scars, to have no breasts, hair, or not to be able to conceive children again. All this due to a simple gene that I carry that causes cancer.

April 26, 2010

Today I had my physical at the Army medical clinic at Fort Hood. The main purpose was to be released so that I can have surgery next week on the 4th. Everything was fine with the exception of my belly button still hurting.
Its been over 12 days since my laparoscopic hysterectomy was performed at the Air Force Base in San Antonio. Everything else has healed except it still hurts to bend over and everything I wear rubs on the area above or below my belly button.