April 27, 2010

Woke up this morning thinking that in a month and half would be a year that I discovered the lump in my breast. It is also almost a year that Carl has been home from Iraq and that in 3 months he has to go back. I do not agree to this war or sending our men and women over there but I stand by them 100%.
They told me it would be a long process in my fight for cancer and that it would take over a year before it feels normal again. When they told me that I looked at them like they were crazy. I kept telling myself that I would have the surgeries and reconstruction done before that year was up. Look at me now almost 7 months after the first surgery and finally I start my reconstruction surgery next week. People do not understand how it feels to be mutilated with scars, to have no breasts, hair, or not to be able to conceive children again. All this due to a simple gene that I carry that causes cancer.